Choices

There are some moments of earnest desperation or perfect clarity when you know what you want from the core of your entire being. These moments are but few.. and the choices span both our personal and professional lives.

Four feet underwater holding your breath for just a moment longer you repeat your deepest wish in your head, you can always trust water to keep your secrets.
In all the theatrics of flashing light and thunderstorms closing your eyes a minute longer you can whisper your deepest wish in a prayer, you can always trust the falling rain to keep your secret.
Standing in the feeble winter sun shivering slightly in the chill of the frozen wind you can rub your hands together in the warmth of your deepest desire, you can always trust winter with your secrets.
Listening to Ludovico Einuanidi’s composition in perfect silence, you can sometimes feel your eyes swell up with tears of your deepest wishes, you can always trust music to be privy to your secrets..

You may or not believe in God, but in that one moment, you surrender to something bigger than you and pray to find ‘your’ way.. I believe this is a very powerful moment when you know with absolute clarity the ‘something’ that you want. You are not just a lost soul who wants someone to show you a way, but every nerve, every bone, and every fiber of your body is alive in the knowledge of what you want..

Sometimes we owe the certainty of our choices based on our familiarity and comfort of knowing and experiencing something over a period of time- the test of time. Other times it is a gut feeling about something completely unknown.

Sometimes people will tell you that they don't exactly know what they want but they have some clue about what they don't want. 'Selection by elimination' is a real thing, this strategy works successfully in competitive exams, so you may as well apply it in life.

At the other end of the spectrum are situations where we seem to be clueless of what choice to make. Opinions may differ here, but I believe deep down everyone knows what they really want. But sometimes making that choice entails a huge risk, it requires courage, faith, going against people we love.. It is a choice between 'the rational'  and 'the emotional', it is this that makes us confused and clueless.

The Architect: There are two doors. The door to your right leads to the Source and the salvation of Zion. The door to your left leads back to the Matrix, to her... and to the end of your species. As you adequately put, the problem is choice. But we already know what you are going to do, don't we? Already I can see the chain reaction: the chemical precursors that signal the onset of an emotion, designed specifically to overwhelm logic and reason. An emotion that is already blinding you to the simple and obvious truth: she is going to die and there is nothing you can do to stop it.

-The Matrix Reloaded

Every moment we are making choices, some consciously others unconsciously. Some easy, some not so easy. We live with choices we make, we live with choice that others make for us, we live with choices life makes for us. It is a fascinating gossamer, every choice tied to the other slowly building the life we live, the relationships we build, the friends we make, just everything..

Morpheus: You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.
-The Matrix
Just like this everything starts, but that moment doesn't give away anything. You have to go all the way down the rabbit hole to understand the choices that you make..

You can either read the blog, or just listen to this piece.. (Its a choice!)