Tuesday, June 18, 2013

The psyche of a goodbye..

First Act:
Some nights are cold for everyone and some nights are cold just for you..
Sometimes the reason is simple, it’s the blanket or the heating in the apartment to blame and you know you can fix it the next day. Sometimes you are left cold and awake all by yourself because you have traded away the known comfort of your life ‘here’ for the unknown adventure of a new life ‘there’.  It’s the fear of losing the comfortable blanket of friends, family, festivities and food behind that makes you break into a cold sweat. Fortunately the pragmatic mind can explain the cold shiver and point out that it is simply because you have packed and shipped away your warm blanket.

Second Act:
The cold night wakes into a slightly numb morning at the sound of the anxious alarm by the bedside. In its numbness the following lines ring true
 
“There is a line from Verlaine I’ll never now recall..
There is a street nearby from which my foot steps are barred..
There is a mirror that has looked its last on my face..
There is a door I have closed for the final time..
Among the books in my library (I can see them now- Managerial Economics, Marketing principles-Kotler)
There are some I will never open again..” -Jorge Luis Borges

Third Act:
With a gentle lurch the plane wheels begin to glide on the runway. The pilot maneuvers a gentle turn towards the blinking lights of the runway and the plane passes by the signal man in his fluorescent vest. The flight attendants repeat the usual safety instructions. To an outside eye, it is the perfect slow lingering frame with the pacing hum of the engine slowly building up; the prelude before the bellowing engine hits full throttle and the flat expanse of the ground begins to race by. Then in one pregnant moment the wheels lose contact with the tarmac, fold back in and the plane becomes air bound. I believe this is one moment that defines ‘losing touch’ and ‘leaving behind’ physically. From this vantage point my mind was looking inwardly at all the ‘leaving behinds’-the glances, the words and the warmth of the last hug. This recollection was vividly overpowering and I knew not when it lulled me back into a peaceful sleep..


Fourth Act:
I am in a new place, among new people but I am not alone. An old familiar face from a time I thought I had left behind surfaced back again. So I am sitting in my new apartment, looking at the rain fall against the windows sipping my cup of green tea and hoping that life may keep taking me to places as long as it gives me a chance to reconnect with people I once left behind..

9 comments:

  1. Nice post! May there be many more acts to follow!

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  2. Wah re wah! A library with Managerial Economics AND Marketing Principles! Bahut Bachiya! Zabardast!

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    1. I think the person who wrote this comment meant to say "Bahut Badhiya" ...

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  3. Would you look at that! 3 comments in such quick time! Looks like this blog is becoming really popular! :p

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  4. Very nice! How long did you take to write this?

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  5. The thought of staging these acts really amuses me!!!
    This could have been a blank verse
    Driftwood you have a flare for this language... But still absence of ninja's guidance is palpable!!!

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    1. you will be the ninja warrior some day.. u have ninja's blessings :)
      the acts simply indicate different scenes at different places and different frame of mind.

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  6. Dhanyawaad dost.. tumhare blog main badi shaanti hai..koi inspiration nahi mil rahe aaj kal?

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